When Jack was born, I knew I'd be going back to work after those 12 weeks off. Thankfully, I had a stellar boss who helped me transition back into a Part Time role where I would only be working 3 days a week, and home with Jack the other two. That seemed great and I was really excited to have the "best of both worlds". Unfortunately, due to the Postpartum Anxiety I was dealing with those first 6 months - I didn't get to enjoy the time home with Jack like I thought or had hoped. I ended up taking him to daycare on days I had off because I would get so overwhelmed. I wanted to have that feeling that most Mom's get - where they longed to be home with their child. I didn't get that... UNTIL I took control of my postpartum anxiety in January 2017 and got the help I needed.
2017 has had its ups and downs but overall its been a dream when it comes to my relationship with Jack and Joey and my role as a Mother. Late Winter/Early Spring I started to feel that bond I was longing for. That motherly connection. I still enjoyed my few days at work each week but we transitioned Jack to part time daycare so on my off days he would be home with me... because I WANTED to spend my days with him. The last few months started to become even more difficult balancing work and life and my desire to stay home with Jack full time. I felt like I was in a really difficult spot because I LOVED my job. I LOVE the Student Advising world and I worked hard to make it into that field... BUT (and that's the kicker) - I began to despise Monday night, knowing I'd have to work the next day. That's when I knew it was time.
Joey - oh, Joey. I have no idea what I would do without him. I don't think I could have a more supportive partner in life. For that, I am truly grateful. He had been "pushing me" to just leave work for a while - but I knew I had to be ready, personally, to transition out of one work force and into another. The week we finally had the talk where it was decided that I'd submit my resignation notice.... I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders.
Now, this is a very personal decision. I understand how fortunate I am to even have the opportunity to stay home, as I know not everyone is able to do that. If this is a discussion you and your family have from time to time - or a dream you have... think about ways to try and make it happen.
Joey and I are BIG into saving money - we've been saving and saving (and saving) for years now. We shop smart, coupon, and buy what we need. We have a very minimalist attitude when it comes to the "things" in our home, clothes and food. That being said - we are in a great place, financially, where we ARE able to make me staying at home work. I'm not sure if and when I will go back into the work place... it could be a few months, maybe a few years. We will play it by ear, but all I can say is that I'm loving this season of life and that I get to enjoy it - at home - with my sweet boy.
So much change. So many transitions. I'm loving each and every one.
(Photo Credit: Kari Villa-Rivera)